Hey Google…

I was giving the kids a bath and googling how to care for their skin because they had a bunch of dead skin building up and I was googling how to take care of their hair because it just looked unruly. I went to bed crying because I felt stupid for having to google it, when the thought of “I should know this” kept creeping into my mind. But my parents are white and I grew up in an entirely white neighborhood and still have a fully white community of friends. Where was I supposed to learn this stuff?

Who was supposed to teach me?
Who was supposed to guide me?
Lead me
Show me

Ahhhhhhhh

It’s the blind leading the blind
I’m a freaking rollercoaster ride
Dirty and dry
Thinking about it makes me want to cry
What kids will whisper from behind
*whisper* Dirty and dry

How do I teach?
How do I guide?
Lead them
Show them

Ahhhhhhhh

YouTube and Pinterest
They only have a piece of it
Hey Google, can you help a mama out?
I’m gonna start to scream and shout!

WHAT DO I TEACH?
WHERE DO I GUIDE?
WHERE DO I LEAD?
WHAT SHOULD I SHOW?

AHHHHHHHH

I’m black in a white world
Riding on a tilt a whirl
Up is down, I’m inside out. Turn after turn.
And my kids? They are even more in between
Will they be heard? How will they be seen?

Someone, PLEASE HELP ME OUT!